You want to be or do something new, but you do not yet know what that something is – so your days seem to drag, to be lifeless.
This feeling is similar to what you felt in early puberty before you were allowed to date or drive. You wanted to rush into adulthood before you were physically prepared to do so.
So it is now. Those feelings of, “I’m ready, what’s taking so long?” are becoming almost overwhelming. You test this or that new activity or philosophy, hoping against hope that doing so will move you into the Universal maturity for which you pine.
You are in one of those frustrating ‘wait and see’ phases – not necessarily enjoying your old life and not yet fully creating your new life.
You know love and joy are to come for you have seen them often in your mind’s eye, but neither seems to be a large part of your life now. Just as was true in early puberty stages when you yearned to experience the romantic love touted by your media.
You knew what you wanted in puberty, but not how to get there for your physicality could not yet connect the pieces. There were times during that early puberty stage when you were certain you would never experience anything but boredom, fear, and drudgery – much as you are likely feeling now.
Even though your early puberty required years of patience and frustration, the same is not true now for neither you nor the Universes wish to ponder, dream, fear, or agonize for years. All will shift in a flash.
You activated pieces within you that neither you nor we thought possible in one lifetime. So it is you will enjoy new you in New Earth in this lifetime. This early puberty new you stage will terminate in days or weeks instead of years.
You are evolving more rapidly than has been your pace until now. So do not fret if you have minor aches and pains. Or feel disinterested in life or new you. Or you are a bit edgy with those you love. You are evolving so rapidly that you are no longer, if you will, in control of your being. Which is little different from what was true throughout puberty, particularly the early stages when you displayed both child-like and adult characteristics– often within minutes.
In 3D, you were comfortable with the self-control you were trained to project and protect. Even though someone made you angry, you smiled and said the right thing. Or if you were sad or worried, you pretended you were not. You controlled your emotions for most of your 3D life– with the exception of early childhood – resulting in many of your 3D illnesses.
That control is rapidly falling away – which in itself is frightening for control is a key component of your 3D world. At the same time, your current inability to ‘curb your tongue’ or your actions are terrifying for you do not yet understand what personal freedom means. Even though that characteristic, that personal freedom, is moving you astray in your 3D world, it is encouraging you to be you in your new 5D or beyond world.